love, loss and life

We're all familiar with the lesson: "Don't go to bed angry."  It seems like a no-brainer as it is always best to resolve problems before going to sleep so you an start fresh the next day.  That doesn't always happen in my world.  I am stubborn and at times, childish in arguments (some that are so petty to begin with) with the boyf and I have ever gone to bed with a chip on my shoulder.  I've never thought it was such a big deal until yesterday.

Yesterday, my co-worker woke up and her boyfriend was dead.  I found out right before I was taking drinks to a table.  I was shocked, saddened and most of all, I was thinking about what she must be going through.  Although the details of his death are still a mystery to me, I was told she was most upset because they had argued before going to sleep and both went to bed angry.  So, on top of coping with the loss of the man she loves, she has to live with the fact that the last things they said to one another were not said out of love.

I could help but try to put myself in her situation.  Simply waking up to my boyfriend, dead would have been horrific enough; I don't think I would ever outlive the regret of going to bed angry and having my last encounter with the man I love be a negative one.  Can you?  

Although I always knew that it's never good to leave arguments unresolved, my co-worker's horrible ordeal and tragic loss has mad me realize how unexpected life can be.  Ultimately, there is no guarantee that there will be a tomorrow to kiss and make up.  Every conversation counts.  Every word counts.  Life is too short to spend it angry and holding grudges.  This is my wake-up call.  

Before you turn out the lights tonight smooch the one you love, it will make the morning that much sweeter:)